For the first several years, study filled up my time. English is my communication tool. And even though I have had a boyfriend for a long time, I didn't have motivation to put myself together to learn it, or study it.
I always decided to start learning, with books, TV and conversations. But after few weeks, I found myself in an ackward situation - other things took over my time and motivation. When I had even time, I naturally forgot about 'Finnish'. I went for the easier way, talking in English and watching English TV shows, etc.
I am so aware of these things. For last 3 monthes, things were going quite well with my Finnish, I talked with people in Finnish quite often. They liked speaking back Finnish. Then today I became very annoyed at myself. I noticed I stopped learning Finnish AGAIN. I am again in this loop: feel bad about not knowing Finnish- determined to pick it up again - quite relieved with my improvement - other matters - forget my determination - after weeks I realized it...
I wanted to take frequent Finnish lessons. työvoimatoimisto's Finnish course of course does not accept me because I am not a full-time job seeker. There is no other options here like other bigger towns. I suppose I can learn Finnish, like self-study, talking to natives, maybe without necessarily attending courses. But the thing is I can't keep on going, whatever which methods I use. I usually stopped without myself realizing it.
I have kept one thing going for over 2 months- watching 'Salatut elämät'
Thanks for listening!
